No Camera, No life

I'm so disappointed right now. We took the camera with us to California to take pictures and got sand in it while we were at the beach. So I didn't get to take pictures at Sea World and haven't been able to take pictures since then. Like for the 4th of July, Chase's wedding, and many other things I was wishing I had my camera for. This means no posts for a while, unfortunately, until I can either figure out how to get it fixed or afford to buy a new one (yeah right).

Forget Me Nots

Sibling rivalry can sometimes be so funny. I had to buy Aidan some more undies because I can't keep on top of his laundry, it has to be done so often. Well, I cracked them out and I think Teague was jealous of the attention. He wanted to wear undies too. So here he is as a big boy. I had to put them on over his pants or they never would have stayed up! Hilarious!

Just keep swimming.

So it's been two weeks since I did my last post, well almost. I've been a little discouraged, even though I've told myself not to be. Last week I was so sick I wanted to bury myself in the backyard so I haven't exactly eaten as well as I would have liked to.

But Ry and I bought a new elliptical a couple of weeks ago and I love it. I have to admit, I had rose colored glasses on thinking it would be so easy to do while I watched tv...you know, sitting on the couch or doing the elliptical. Easy, right. Well that part is easy, it's the huffing and puffing and wanting to die while I'm counting down the minutes part that I didn't consider. But it IS paying off as I have lost 10 pounds in the last two weeks.

I don't want to get too excited, especially right now because it's fairly easy for me to lose and gain ten pounds. When I get to 20, then I'll know I'm on the right track. I do have to say, I'm pretty proud of Ry and I for yesterday though. We went grocery shopping and now there are plenty of things to keep me on track. I do feel like I look better, and all around I'm in a happier mood. I think that's because now I really do feel like I'm committed to this. So in the words of the great philosopher Dory the fish I will "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming."

Boys will be Boys

I'm way behind, but a couple of weeks ago Aidan's cousins stopped in for a quick visit. It was nice because we live so far away from each other. Now the dog pile has all the boys including grandpa...there are two grown men, an 11 year old, a 9 year old, a 6 year old, and a 3 year old.

They were all nice and orderly while we were eating lunch, but they soon got Khaki involved in a rough house. I was laughing when my Aidan's uncle said, "Khaki, sick!" Before you know it, Khaki was licking the pinned blond little blue eyed cousin of Aidan's to death. They all seemed to have fun though and it was nice to break up the monotony of my life.

Keeping it in perspective

First of all, I want to say thank you to all of you....this is the whole reason I'm doing this extremely uncomfortable thing. I need the supoort and the help of all the people I care most about in the whole wide world.

Secondly, talk about having a balloon deflated. I had the flu last weekend so I was definately not in the mood to exercise. I had a break on Monday and then got a really bad chest cold yesterday! Now, one of the biggest things I'm working on doing is chaning what I say to myself. This is REALLY hard because your inner dialogue is kind of automatic and it's really hard to catch youself being mean until after the fact. But, I keep it no secret that I'm a HUGE Dr. Phil addict. He's like my personal psychiatrist minus the one on one relationship. I'm reading his weight loss book and I went back to find something he said that really stuck. I'm going to follow as he says and not let myself get down about such a bad start!

"Recognize that there will be events over which you have no control. For example, you are not to blame for missing your morning walk because there's a real gully-washer outside. If you say, 'I'm mad at myself because I didn't get to walk today," you are inappropriately internalizing. You're blaming yourself for the weather!" -Phil McGraw